Post by DanniGlow on May 13, 2010 18:04:54 GMT -5
Alright,
I want to say that I'm sorry I haven't been around the last week or so, a lot of things going on.
First of all, I'm moving here in 13 days into my new Duplex, so I might be hard to get a hold of for a little bit, but I'll do my best to show up and keep people updated, I have commissions I know I owe a couple of people and I'll have them done as soon as I possibly can.
The reason I haven't been around is my mom. For you who don't know, when I was 11 years old, my Grandmother died right after my youngest brother was born and my mom receded from my family. She was still there... but she locked herself up and separated herself from myself, my father and my 2 younger brothers. It was hard, because I was forced to take a roll no 11 year old should and raised my brothers like they were mine while my Dad worked and Mom hid herself away.
Mom got cancer when I was 14, and blamed it on me, that I had stressed her to the point that she was so sick. I think honestly that she didn't know how to handle any of her own pain and took it out on us(me more so because I was the oldest).
After I moved out after graduating high school, I think it finally hit my mom that I couldn't deal with her, and all the bullshit. She figured out she was loosing me and Jordan(my kid brother) and the only one who didn't understand was Brandon(my baby brother).
She finally started doing something about it. Became more active and started doing things to make herself healthier and better.
Finally, last week, I went over to their house to see my brothers and hang out. Mom's cancer is now gone, doctors don't know how exactly, and she's lost a lot of weight(65lbs) and has fixed herself up. If she looses 10-15lbs, we'll be wearing the same size pants(I wear size 1 to 3's depending on the brand).
I seriously couldn't believe it, and on Mother's day, I almost broke down and cried. My mom went outside with me and my brothers with their two Rotties and actually ran around and hung out on the skate ramps with me. It's the first time EVER that I can remember since I was 9 years old that my mother did something outside and actually put so much effort into doing something with Jordan and I... first time I've ever seen her active with Brandon.
So it's been very emotional for me, I feel like I have my mother BACK. And it's hard, so very very hard to think I had to wait SO long to have what I've always wanted in my life.
I'm sorry I kinda went over board with my explanation, but it's a big thing for me.
So... I'm trying to spend time with her, to enjoy the family I wish I'd had growing up and am happy that Brandon gets to enjoy what I didn't at his age.
If you need to get a hold of me, those who have my # can text me or if you don't, email me at: Snow_Winged_Angel@Hotmail.com
I'll be online from time to time, but after the move I should be on more regularly.
Thanks guys.
Love you all,
Danni/ Vexy
I want to say that I'm sorry I haven't been around the last week or so, a lot of things going on.
First of all, I'm moving here in 13 days into my new Duplex, so I might be hard to get a hold of for a little bit, but I'll do my best to show up and keep people updated, I have commissions I know I owe a couple of people and I'll have them done as soon as I possibly can.
The reason I haven't been around is my mom. For you who don't know, when I was 11 years old, my Grandmother died right after my youngest brother was born and my mom receded from my family. She was still there... but she locked herself up and separated herself from myself, my father and my 2 younger brothers. It was hard, because I was forced to take a roll no 11 year old should and raised my brothers like they were mine while my Dad worked and Mom hid herself away.
Mom got cancer when I was 14, and blamed it on me, that I had stressed her to the point that she was so sick. I think honestly that she didn't know how to handle any of her own pain and took it out on us(me more so because I was the oldest).
After I moved out after graduating high school, I think it finally hit my mom that I couldn't deal with her, and all the bullshit. She figured out she was loosing me and Jordan(my kid brother) and the only one who didn't understand was Brandon(my baby brother).
She finally started doing something about it. Became more active and started doing things to make herself healthier and better.
Finally, last week, I went over to their house to see my brothers and hang out. Mom's cancer is now gone, doctors don't know how exactly, and she's lost a lot of weight(65lbs) and has fixed herself up. If she looses 10-15lbs, we'll be wearing the same size pants(I wear size 1 to 3's depending on the brand).
I seriously couldn't believe it, and on Mother's day, I almost broke down and cried. My mom went outside with me and my brothers with their two Rotties and actually ran around and hung out on the skate ramps with me. It's the first time EVER that I can remember since I was 9 years old that my mother did something outside and actually put so much effort into doing something with Jordan and I... first time I've ever seen her active with Brandon.
So it's been very emotional for me, I feel like I have my mother BACK. And it's hard, so very very hard to think I had to wait SO long to have what I've always wanted in my life.
I'm sorry I kinda went over board with my explanation, but it's a big thing for me.
So... I'm trying to spend time with her, to enjoy the family I wish I'd had growing up and am happy that Brandon gets to enjoy what I didn't at his age.
If you need to get a hold of me, those who have my # can text me or if you don't, email me at: Snow_Winged_Angel@Hotmail.com
I'll be online from time to time, but after the move I should be on more regularly.
Thanks guys.
Love you all,
Danni/ Vexy
